One of the greatest
examples in the Bible of dealing with guilt is the story of King David. If you recall the story in 2 Samuel 11 the
King knowingly took a married woman, Bathsheba, and slept with her. Ultimately the consequences of their sin led
to her pregnancy. One problem: a question of who fathered the child would be
presented since her husband was a soldier in the army of Israel and was
presently out at war. Unfortunately,
after other methods to cover up this transgression had failed, King David ordered
the placement of the soldier to the front lines where he would be guaranteed to
face death…and indeed he did. Yet, from
this moral failure David became riddled with guilt. While I’ve never ordered the death of
someone, I can relate to the King’s grappling with guilt.
I’ve made some pretty
selfish choices in my life. I still do at times. One of the selfish choices I ever made was
also driven by fear, lack of faith, and it ultimately hurt the other person
involved. Christian blogger, Glynnis
Whitwer once wrote that “sinful decisions can bring about a guilt-ridden
condition that manifests itself in negative thinking and reduced potential.”
Indeed, my response to my
sin was just like this. Sure I felt
sorry, but I did not immediately try to push past the shame of my failure. Sure I asked for forgiveness, but I had a
hard time believing that I deserved to be forgiven for causing such hurt. In the midst of my confession, repentance, and
plea for forgiveness I lived with immense pain and regret. Some days it was hard for my mind to think of
anything else, and it didn’t make it easier that the individual I attempted to
seek forgiveness from flat out refused to forgive me. I even gave it some time, and I attempted on several
other occasions to gain forgiveness from the individual, but no, they would not
forgive. Finally, I turned to God’s word
and began to pour myself deeply into Him.
I learned a few things: Only God
can restore; I desperately needed God to support my desire for righteous living;
Jesus Christ wants me to live joyfully.
Like David, I eventually
began to accept God’s forgiveness, found focuses for thanksgiving, gained
strength from the scriptures and felt the chains of condemnation loose
themselves.
My point is this: Don’t
turn away from God in your mistakes. Don’t grapple with guilt for too long; it
is a debilitating emotion that produces poisonous lies making you feel unfit
for God’s kingdom. But remember who you
are as a believer. We are…soldiers (2
Timothy 2:3)…more than conquerors
(Romans 8:37)…friends of God (John
15:15)…His sheep (Psalm 100:3)…chosen, holy and dearly loved (Colossians
3:12).
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